Moved On

Ever since almost everyone around me knew what was happen to me lately. My bad moment and disaster of my life I can say. Things are getting clearer now, what I have passing through was a fake, a "couple" of fake guys claimed as a good friend, bullshit! I should alerted about this earlier because some of other concerned friends has realized about them and did told me to be careful with them. Thank Goodness, He has separated us, me with them before everything is too late. Nothing much I can do anymore, and I wont so. Its all revealed. Everything was just over, its gone. I'm so over it(relieved) and I'm moved on. They are really showed their act that they're totally threw me away, haha, simple to say, Don't they ever think that I throwing them away too? Much more fucked up in humiliated way. hahah! Pathetic. So silly to them. ^^

Thank you for everyone who supporting behind my back, since the first from the incident happens to the present. Your appearance and support really makes me feel like I'm being so appreciated. Thank you too because of you're all understanding, being witnessed and making fair judgement of the incident and you're all with me all the time. So that's the meaning of true friendship, investigated from leave to root but not easily jump and making idiot assumption like "one" of those faker made. I really appreciated it to all of you from the bottom of my heart.

Friends, be careful not to be blinded by those fake friends, glib mouth. They're so lucky I'm not mentioning their name and put their photo here, as I still have respect to them. In addition, they never deserved me as their friend ever. Never.


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Today Was a Fairytale

I was just in speechless state. Only a few close friends knew what actually happened to me yesterday. It was totally sick, I felt like I wanna scream, yelling or even shouting, but to no one. That was totally a horrible feeling. Everything that what I want to do after was ruined. However, there was a miracle happens later, and yet, replacing against the bad situation i had just a few hours before. Thank goodness. My mood recovered. Things getting better. ^^

After class today, Fareen tapped on my shoulder, she whispering, "I wanna see you tonight, I really wanna see you". I was just say OK. I knew, there must be something went wrong. She doesn't have to hardly speak to me and mentioned a lot, as I may easily catch up whats on her mind easily. As planned,that night along with Wan, we fetched her. We had dinner together. Yes, as what I have thought, she really needs my ear to listen to her. I know how does it feel when sitting on her places, I have been thru a lot, much way worst than that. After all, everything relieved when what supposed to come out,she's expelled it. Later, we watched a movie. That was unintended, but we managed to watch Alice in Wonderland.

The movie was OK. Pretty nice IMHO. I feel like I was in childhood age watching that kind of fairytale movie. As the movie ends, some scenes in the movie still visualized in my head. I love to watch fairytale, today was a fairytale ^_^

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Happy & Absurd

Yesterday, I found my ex-primary school batch 97-02(my year of study batch) group on Facebook. I was surprised, I never knew when was the group was exactly established. I have added all the members who I knew. All of them, almost. Suddenly, my notification robustly bunched with a lot of wall post. They remember me, we have updated on each other, I'm so glad they're still remembering me! Most of them are still the same wacky and crazy, hilarious. However, they said, I'm the only who transformed a lot in my appearance. Haha, which part? Am I? I'm wondering. In addition, we recalled all those nice moment we had when we was in primary school, childish behavior n so on. I'm so happy. ^^

Today, I left Ipoh for KL by bike. As soon as I arrived, I went to college with Wan and Cai. We've planned to settled all it needs to register for the new semester. However, it such a bad day. Cai and me are not allowed to register because of long haired and hair is colored respectively. Shit! It just like useless we rushed to the college, but we can't do nothing about it. So, it just like we only visit the college without settling what we are supposed to do. Then we just going back home with ^&^%%$$%^%^ over our head. Blah!



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Less than 5 days

I woke up early again today. Realizing that there is 5 more day to go for new sem opening. A few more time left for me to spend here in my hometown, Ipoh. Initially, at the first week of break, I was thought the one month sem break will be going so boring with nothing planned to do. Unfortunately, the day before I pull away out of KL for Ipoh, I realized that my wallet was gone. I cant find it everywhere. I don't have so much time, I made a police report and set my way back to ipoh.

I got my first job here as soon as I arrived Ipoh! Job title "Replacing All The Lost Cards",including MyKAD, Driving license, ATM n MESRA(ive collected thousand of points already T_T). Shit! I had to spend a lot of money for all those cards replacement. That was so unlucky scene. However, everything was going back in place later, I met my family, relatives, and friends. Seemsly, my days here in ipoh was fulfilled with a lot of things, day by day came up with surprise fun. Everyday, there must be something I have to do. Indeed, this is my first sem break that i felt, its pretty content. Thanks a lot everyone!

Today, me and my family is setting up to go for Cameron Highlands. My friend said, Cameron is not really cold as before due to our country is facing hot weather condition now although weather getting better day by day. So, whether its true or not, it will be answered when i reached there soon. ^^


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Alice in Wonderland

AVRIL LAVIGNE- ALICE

Trippin out
Spinning around
I'm underground
I fell down
Yeah I fell down

I'm freaking out, where am I now?
Upside down and I can't stop it now
Can't stop me now, oh oh

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Got back on my feet, again
Is this real?
Is this pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, I won't cry

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, and I won't cry


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The Return

As time passing by, i never realised that it has been ages i left this blog "die" without any update. The first and the last post i was send about exactly one year ago. Today is the return of me. While I'm siting here on an old wooden bench in my house, i look outside window seeing the sun is about to rise, linnets, sparrows flew in their fleet away to the west. Cuckoo also making their sound, replenish the morning silence. It's a new day! a new spirit, I'm awake and start to reactivate, writing down rage and grace about any moment of my life and share something from the bottom of my heart.


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